Well, I'm back (sort of)! Actually, I'm not sure how long it will be before I am back in the kitchen, and the general swing of things. I am slowly gaining the strength to do more things on my own like brush my teeth, use a fork, open a door, type with one finger.... mostly simple, small things, but all of those little things we don't think about and take for granted until we can't do them anymore.
I must admit that the shock of all of this really hasn't hit me yet. It still seems so unrealistic. Most traumatic situations usually take me a while to really absorb them. I didn't cry until I first layed down at my parents' home, and I'm sure the aftermath wont strike me until a few weeks from now. But, a few things I have realized is just how wonderful of a community of friends and family I am surrounded by. You guys have been truly amazing, and it makes me want to cry when I think about how full of love my heart is for each of you. I've also realized how much I really don't have it all together. You see, I had this plan, and I had it all figured out. Of course I should have known better, that my plans rarely line up with the plans that God has. I don't know where I'm headed now, and I'm going to do my best to keep traveling down His path without any self-made plans to hold on to. All I can keep thinking is that my plans must have been way off if I was stopped so abruptly. Who knows what is coming next or what He has in store, but I'm glad I'm where He wants me right now, and I'm glad I have my community to hold me together. Writing some of this out has been quite cathartic, so thanks for bearing my rambling. I can't promise that this will be the last.
Mostly I've been wasting my time away watching the food network, so my itch to get in the kitchen is growing by the day. Maybe I'll just post some of the interesting recipes I find, and you can tell me whether they are good or not! :) Well, this post has worn me out, so I'm off, hopefully for not long though!