Sunday, April 5, 2009

Well, I'm back (sort of)! Actually, I'm not sure how long it will be before I am back in the kitchen, and the general swing of things. I am slowly gaining the strength to do more things on my own like brush my teeth, use a fork, open a door, type with one finger.... mostly simple, small things, but all of those little things we don't think about and take for granted until we can't do them anymore.

I must admit that the shock of all of this really hasn't hit me yet. It still seems so unrealistic. Most traumatic situations usually take me a while to really absorb them. I didn't cry until I first layed down at my parents' home, and I'm sure the aftermath wont strike me until a few weeks from now. But, a few things I have realized is just how wonderful of a community of friends and family I am surrounded by. You guys have been truly amazing, and it makes me want to cry when I think about how full of love my heart is for each of you. I've also realized how much I really don't have it all together. You see, I had this plan, and I had it all figured out. Of course I should have known better, that my plans rarely line up with the plans that God has. I don't know where I'm headed now, and I'm going to do my best to keep traveling down His path without any self-made plans to hold on to. All I can keep thinking is that my plans must have been way off if I was stopped so abruptly. Who knows what is coming next or what He has in store, but I'm glad I'm where He wants me right now, and I'm glad I have my community to hold me together. Writing some of this out has been quite cathartic, so thanks for bearing my rambling. I can't promise that this will be the last.

Mostly I've been wasting my time away watching the food network, so my itch to get in the kitchen is growing by the day. Maybe I'll just post some of the interesting recipes I find, and you can tell me whether they are good or not! :) Well, this post has worn me out, so I'm off, hopefully for not long though!

7 comments:

Melissa said...

Haley!! It was so good to see a post from you! I miss you badly and Church wasn't the same without seeing you there. Someone told me today that I laughed like you. I took it as the highest compliment:) Please come home soon!

Shari said...

Haley, I have some great Christian fiction books if you're interested in doing some reading... authors like Francine Rivers, Kristen Heitzman (one of my favorites), and Terri Blackstock... Let me know. I'll hopefully see your dad at band practice tomorrow.

Tori said...

hay I love you so much!! Just reading your post has brought my emotions to the surface again. i am so very thankful that God worked such an awesome miracle. hearing you talk about your plans and what God has for you reminds me to do the same and submit to His will. i love you so much!!

Unknown said...

Watching the food network, I cant think of a better way to waste time. Glad you're up and about on the net.

Sophie said...

Hi Haley! It's good to have you back! I am so glad you're posting again, helps me know you're doing better!

Your little gift just arrived today, so I'll be mailing it off very soon. Hopefully you'll get it by early next week. Continue resting up and feeling better :).

Allen Bruggman said...

Haley - I just caught up with all this, so thankful to hear you and Lori are okay! Good luck getting yourself back to working order, I'll be thinking of you.

Miss Meat and Potatoes said...

Yay - so glad you're up to blogging again! What a strong girl you are!

You are more than welcome for the book! Again - I'm just so impressed with your strength and positive outlook.

I'll try and include some more baking recipes on my blog until you're back at it again!!